rest or fun

in growing up the schedule fills up
with work
with social obligations

my calender has been so crammed with fun
but what i really want for christmas
is a little bit of rest

great people

you know. the ones that went down in history
they gave up so much
they dedicated themselves wholeheartedly
they built things stone by stone
but there is no element of mystery or impossible
in what they did
just hard cold steady determination
and perhaps timing

(finished Ghandi's memoires and halfway through Mandelas)

eroding barriers

some of us run
some of us fight

sometimes it takes courage
to stand your ground
and chip away at the barriers
stroke, by gentle stroke...

community

Strong bonding between people means engaging over time their differences.

Richard Sennett in The Corrosion of Character

Samma Ajiva, the right livelihood

fortunate
(in so many other ways, but also)
to be young enough to be able to make the choice
and wise enough to know which path to choose

funny how the philosophical meanderings can become such concrete options sometimes.

Being a global nomad

... it took me 6 months to buy plates, and only because it bothered someone i was dating that we were eating out of bowls.
... i might never buy curtains
... football/hockey/baseball teams etc? *shrug*
... for every purchase there is always the counter question of whether i would bring it along for the next move
... my sugar is still kept in an asparagus jar
... i normally have 4 kinds of teas and two kinds of coffees, for guests as much as myself because it makes me feel at home
... i don't want to do the goodbyes again, but that is no doubt the nature of the beast....

stay or leave

If you put everything into something, and it doesn't grow then you need to leave.
But it has to be wholehearted.
The hard thing is the time aspect... and how much it has to grow.
But if you give everything then you know for sure when enough is enough

* Above all, be true to yourself, and if you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it.--Hardy D. Jackson

bad mood

no romance didn't die
because it's always been dead
i was just a fool to think otherwise